a flicker of thought, as he glances back to the smoldering fire: she would never have seen them anyway. or he could say something flippant, easily; or some platitude, or pleasantry; or he could say no, because isn't that why he called silas instead of anyone else?
isn't it?
he says, ]
Most days, [ weighted, weary, almost enough to break, ] it's enough to try to help these people, and fight this war.
[ enough to have some purpose, some good to be doing, some reason to justify how he's survived, again and again, where so many haven't. to even imply that the cause sometimes isn't feels unforgivably selfish; there's the saying about old habits, and this is his oldest. the farm, his crew, this place: there's always something he feels he needs to save.
petrana had her counterpoint, the reminder that they owe it to themselves, too, to win the war. but the notion of fighting for his own sake isn't built into him.
he shakes his head, wry. the follow-up to that sentence probably doesn't need to be said. some days, it's enough; other days, it's apparently like this. ]
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a flicker of thought, as he glances back to the smoldering fire: she would never have seen them anyway. or he could say something flippant, easily; or some platitude, or pleasantry; or he could say no, because isn't that why he called silas instead of anyone else?
isn't it?
he says, ]
Most days, [ weighted, weary, almost enough to break, ] it's enough to try to help these people, and fight this war.
[ enough to have some purpose, some good to be doing, some reason to justify how he's survived, again and again, where so many haven't. to even imply that the cause sometimes isn't feels unforgivably selfish; there's the saying about old habits, and this is his oldest. the farm, his crew, this place: there's always something he feels he needs to save.
petrana had her counterpoint, the reminder that they owe it to themselves, too, to win the war. but the notion of fighting for his own sake isn't built into him.
he shakes his head, wry. the follow-up to that sentence probably doesn't need to be said. some days, it's enough; other days, it's apparently like this. ]