There are parts of these sparse explanations that feel understandable, though by the same turn Ellis knows his grasp of what Richard is alluding to is lacking. There are pieces of this missing. Ellis isn't sure he has to right to pry after all of them.

A break in conversation while Ellis draws two metal bowls from his pack. He stretches to offer one to Richard as he presses, "Do you regret it? Not being able to pursue it?"